imagine having opportunity to dump all the abuse in your life, but wanting it to go on a little longer because you’re afraid of missing it

imagine having help to dump all the abuse in your life, but wanting it to go away so you can indulge in it for another day

imagine being able to help others but not yourself, and wanting to be welcomed as a buddy

what curtain can you be theatrical with today?

imagine having opportunity to be a flaming flamingo today, but not having the balls to try it

imagine having help to be a flaming flamingo today, but turning it away to be a suppressed dingbat (again)

imagine being able to help others, but not feeling you deserve it enough for yourself

what demon can you be theatrical with today?

imagine having opportunity to be true to yourself all day (today), but not wanting to leave the other idiots behind

imagine having help to be true to yourself all day (today), and sending it packing so you can be a top idiot (again)

imagine being able to help others but not registering the trouble you’re in yourself

what fullness can you be theatrical with today?

i admit i’m an idiot and i love being part of the Idiots Club

I admit i’m afraid of being free of that bullshit lifestyle and joining the Teddybear Picnic Club instead

i’m admit i’m ready for a transformation and have enough help around me to do it, for real, for good, for worse, whatever …

i admit i’m an excessive-behaviourist and have awareness that this puts holes in my aura which makes me susceptible to abuse and pretending i have no power to be real

i admit i’m a junky-mentalist and have awareness that this puts me in a cliche (catch 22 – i can’t stop the war because i’m in love with it – i can’t be whom i am because i love denying whom i am more than i care to admit – i can’t surrender because i’ll stop the pain that i’m in love with)

i admit i’m overly-sensitive and have awareness that this is useful sometimes but when it’s not working for me it’s working against me (in strong ways that i’m so used to i believe they have to stay)

i admit i have the makings of a rescue-package in place and a lot of external support in the ethereal body – and that i have a business proposition ready to engage the help of family to promote me with this venture

i admit i have the makings of a sustainable venture in place and a lot of resources in use/storage to get it to be a real thing – and that i have opportunity to get the venue i need to make it all come together, one step at a time

i admit i have the makings of a successful career in place and a lot of team i may not have met yet (for real) ready to come on board (whether they know it yet or not, for real) – and that i have agreement to turn my life around and make it happen